tragedy that happen when i try to joke

Sometime i thought myself was useless....
Sometimes when i found people that can talk with,can chat with and laughing together...
I tot i found a group of friend that i can join with and share all those happy and crazy moment together...
But it seems that i really a naive and useless boy...
For the cover it does happen like that but in the reality nothing is like that...
Many things will change when even one of the people does not agree with you...
the thing will change 180 degree...
"You have to remember kid you are just a new member in the group..please be polite and don't be rude to the senior member in the group..."
"You thought that it was just a joke...but actually u hurt somebody...some of them was very angry indeed...quickly apologise.."
Is it really true that i was rude?i was just joking around even some of them yet still say they joining my joke...
but why must i apologise and say that i'm rude and making some people angry..
*crying* i was so hurt that time...it was just a joke.they already say that they know it was a joke...i do have state it out "I WAS JUST JOKING"...
but why yet there still got people pointing their finger toward me and say that i was wrong and i'm the one that should apologise...
fooling around with my name wasn't that also a harassment...but i don't mind it but a little joke you all already so angry about it and complaining and say that i need to apologise in the public that i have been rude...after i apologise tho everyone now you want me to apologise to the person that i was joking with...
Sorry to say so but i'm not that guy anymore that always been puppeting by everyone and been used by people for their own benefit or the boy that so innocence...
sorry i already say it once and i don't want to repeat it again..
if i really that not welcome by you all then i'm so sorry but have to leave you all...
let these all past and forget everything that happen...
Just imagine that i have never been that place before if it continue to getting worse...