Crap of the days...emo

lately i was having depressed with my daily life...my school work, social life, friendship, communication with the people surround me and lastly the problem arose among those people which live under one roof with me. day by day i getting stress and stress... day by day acting strong and cheerful and nothing all the time really make me sick TT~TT. but thanks to the souvenir which make me forget everything that i was worried bout. the only thing that can make me totally focus and abandon the rest is spending my focus totally on art craft. that day i didn't feel the time passing so fast and also the happy moment. right after i done the prototype for the souvenir i was proud and happy with myself coz of many god feedback and compliment from the people around me...but right after that sad and annoyance moment have arrive once again to take away all the happiness around me... problem arise and we should settle it, getting advice from the senior, izzit it was wrong and i dunno why some one still have to become those rumors spreader and giving the info to those suppose not to know person. dun you have mind to think that you shud think before you act. passing info to other people without consider the outcome really is pathetic. of course it won't effect you but it affect our relationship with each other. the most shocking things is the selfishness that finally show yourself in front of me which really make me annoy and pissed off... you keep on saying we are housemate but your selfishness doesn't show that we are housemate but a different group of people staying together under one roof. please please consider our feeling when you voice out your "SELFISH" opinion. we give out our oipinion and solution you say it won't work but yet you are trying to avoid the issue and continue your selfish attitude. that really make me sad. to tell the truth yes i wasn't a person that hang around the house coz i always lock myself inside my own world but please DO REMEMBER that i'm still your HOUSEMATE!!! if you got a better idea please say it out and stop giving your " I DON'T GIVE A DAMN, THE MOST IMPORTANT I GET WHAT I WANT" attitude towards me.. i don't want to broke my promise to stay in this house until the end of my study here...
p/s:i know people may think i'm childish and pessimistic, but yet i still have my authority to voice out what i'm thinking. i don't want to hurt either one of your especially the person that put all his heart to solve out this matter, well that not me but i wish i can help him out.
well, i think most of your have heard the latest fever song called Tik Tok by Kesha rite?well what i going to post is an acoustic version cover of that song, and well no offenses here, i think this cover is far way better than th e original one ^^, summore this talented singer singing that song in an extremely slow and steady speed..and remade the whole song into a new song..
well i better Shut Up and let you listen yourself.
credited to : Ghassen Elfunky@facebook
shared by : iamdramaking@blogspot
haiz..it seems like i really can't handle the lab report anymore...
i wish i can just put it aside and dn't do that report anymore ==
but it can't be coz that is what a chemist should do..
so..i still have to carried on TT~TT
well picture describe it all, why i made this? well it was during the CNY we got a mini function and gathering, in order to decorate the board, i made this beautiful Lotus/Water lily origami to decorate it ^^
some of you might wanna learn how to make this, it was very easy actually ^^
just follow the video i put below ^^
well it seems moral presentation is OVER!!!well wanna prepare slide, record video and edit it...well editing is the hardest part == well have to readjust everything and adding subtitle which is the worst coz i almost forget almost certain of those malay word as i need to translate Cantonese to Malay ==. well and last minute prepare and study for the slide i'm in-charge really make me nervous but yeti still can act calm during the preparation and presentation..WOW i never thought i will be so calm during presentation although i got stuck a few time but yet for the first time i enjoy presentation...especially the video part. well some of my team mate was a bit nervouls but not obviously..and the most happy thing is the ending where the Lecturer say "Good Job" and we all like woot!! we did it ^^, another more suprising comment is "Dalam semester ini, kumpulan ini adalah kumpulan terbaik setakat ini antara semua kelas yang saya ajar" we was LIKE OMGSUN!!!!we didn't know that we actually hit the jackpot XD
altgough i know there is still some more professional and better group out there haven't present yet but we feel honor to recieve such a good compliment from the lecturer ^^. he even ask us whether he can take our video as a teaching material for the sub topic which he haven't teach yet ^^.
well all of you must curious what video we make right? well actually we making video for a isu call "mercy killing - Euthanasia" and the situtaion is where the doctor is requested to end a brain cancer patient life form the patient parents. well i hope you all can understand the video well although the audio part was a bit mess up ==
-sigh-
i need a place to release his stress and pain...dun really feel like i can fake it anymore in front my friends... i'm cant longer holding my dramaking self and act like nothing happen... hiding something and endure it all in your heart really is a painful thing... sometime my elder tell me, endure it and try to improve yourself to prevent same thing happen again. What for if we make things worse and make the relationship between each other getting worse? For the sake of friendship, endure the pain rather than making things getting worse until the stage of beyond repair... People may think it was right but for me i think it was a bit too selfish which is what i'm thinking right now... Every time we have to think for the sake of other people but one the same time we have neglected ourselves. some times i've been thinking did i really done a good things... but tonight i think that i shouldn't be the old self again and let people continue misunderstand me and continue take advantage or bullying me... i should train myself stronger, well like my mum always say, friends we don't need so much of it, because until the end only the real and true friends will stand out helping you rather than those selfish friends stand aside watching you dying on the street. I really do hope to return myself to my older days where i can enjoy my life without so much worries (except studies). but they wont be such thing turning back time to the pass, human was taught to more forward. so I decide to move forward with a bigger courage and faith. for all those real friends that i have outside there, i hope you can give me strength to continue move forward to face this world which is full with obstacles
well as all people know that CNY u=just ended last week..haiz, now all holiday is gone and back to hectic timetable again. Report,Assignment and mid term test...grrr...i wanna go CRAZY liao ==. well on last monday i did one very funny and crazy think..and it almost make all people heart jump out from their chest ==. they though i make something exploded with a lot *BANG* noise ==. actually i was playing with the filter suction, i wanna test whether it was really that strong suction to effectively dried the wet compound. i was wearing a glove and but my hand on the suction hole, and i didnt notice it was sucking my glove hard and before i manage to close the suction, then glove broken and made a *BANG* noise so loud that everyone was terrific and come to see whether i'm hurt or not.. ROFL!!! especially my group mate, after i tell them what happen, all feel like wanna kill me and warned me never play with those thing again ==. then later after that, was Dr.Sara class, OMFG!! i though i'm the only one dozed off during the class, manatau, behind me the whole line all dozed off and sleeping in the class ROFL!!!
that really epic and Dr.Sara still got the mood to joke about it XD..
Well when i got the mood to go for japanese class, i been pissed of by some of the student inside de class ==, she dun seems like lvl1 student or shud i said she wanna show off herself, HELLO!!! the class not only u one person attend to the class only, she keep on asking those difficult thing to the teacher and expect the teacher answer her!! STFU!!! we even basic also didn't manage to learn but u wasting other people time to ask those difficult thing ==, tsk tsk..day by day the class getting boring coz we only listen to those thing that we dun understand..pissed off la ==
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