Start to think too much already =_=

recently i been a bit over sensitive and pessimistic. i start to care too much on how people treat me and the way they look at me =_=Well especially those a few days back that can chit chat with me and smile when we meet each other, now have suddenly like stranger and don't talk with each other.Well maybe i was grown up or been poluted by the world of gossip and back stabbing during my University life, i start to think a lot and a lot of things that doesnt sem correct and maybe it was correct. things started to get lose of control. i Think i have to calm down and yeah... don;t care too much on people how to look at you, you shuold do and be yourelf and proof yourself who you are. Backstabber always lose in the end if u can STAND STRONG to overcome those backstabbing and gossiping. I think on the same time i need to change my attitude. well i think my bad habit is back, isolated myself and keep silent and be alone at the corner. Well i think i got dual personality...buahaha...i can be cheerful at one time and be silence like a mute people at the another time >.<i really need to change this bad habits, well i need to be more and more daring, have more courage. people don't choi you, u go nag them till the choi you. LOL
Hahaha... just wanna let the world out there to know, don't judge the book by its cover. i may be like this in front of you know but i can be another people when we get more closer ^^
GOOD LUCK and ALL DA BEST for my new life...

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Training day~~~

Woot…second week almost ended. Haha you should be asking what second week have almost ended right? Well is my training period XD. Haha, I have been employed to a paint coating company call DuraChem at Shah Alam. Staying at company hostel is totally different from the home that I stay during my school day at Kampar. I don’t know why but suddenly I fell like wanna use the time machine to turn back my time. I really miss them very much, no matter how many conflict and misunderstanding have happen, but we always end up talking with each other again and forget everything that happen. I’m doubt that this will be happening here. Conflict may happen but yet it was hard to solve conflict here especially we receive the different religious teaching and point of view and not to mention the consideration toward each other? No matter what happen in my previous Student house (the house that I stay at Kampar last time), we always try to consider about other people feeling and try to tolerate with each other. I don’t know la maybe because I stay in single room and always stay alone and going everyway also alone, eat also alone, sleep also alone and almost everything I also do it alone without interfere with other housemate activities.

But right after I move to my company hostel, I been tied to everything and have to do it together with my housemate, well in other point of view they didn’t do anything wrong but it just that I have a different way of handle and doing things. Sometimes I feel like wanna tell them not to do this and that but in the end, think back, who am I to ask them not to do this and that. I’m the one that sticking to them and not to mention depend on them to solve my transport problem and my kiasiness that scare to do thing alone sometimes an especially going places that full with a lot of people that I don’t know.

I don’t know why I been so confident in front of the people that I close with but totally nervous and shy in front of those people that I don’t know… well I have a terrible bad habit, I like to look on the floor when I passing by some people that I not familiar with and of I choose to ignore those people that passing by. This cause a lot of misunderstanding, I receive feedback that people think I’m stuck up, but actually I’m not TT~TT.

Erm… well this week was a bit sad you know, I been training at general lab but yet I didn’t know I got a good senior there, well actually he is just and internship trainee but well he have a good learning ability. Haha at least he more pro than me and my new colleague la. But sadly he gonna end his internship next Friday. Well there go another good colleague. I just have to survive and well try to have a different point of view on looking toward my career, colleagues and new hostel mate.

Good luck to me and yeah not to forget to mention, is time for me to get active again joining SGM activities. Gonna try my best to join Selangor’s Creativy group and also the cultural group. Gambateh for my future ^^

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