2012 comeback Post : Pathetic Year

Hi everyone, i been a long time since i coming back here and blog everything happen to me.Sorry to said that my comeback post was such a pessimistic post.This year i will label it as the most pitiful and pathetic year. Why did i label it so? Because i feel disappointed with what happen around me.
People used to say when the day is getting near to CNY, more positive energy flow will flowing to you, but what i face is all negative energy is flowing all around me.
The biggest disappointment is the most pathetic experience i face in my 24yrs old life.My 21st bday and my 24th bday is equally important. one show that i already grown adult and another one show that i already going thru my 2nd cycle of the chinese zodiac cycle. But what happen is the whole day i face a lot of sad case. First during breakfast, mum and dad keep on mumbling and nagging bout my sudden decision on my career issue. well i know they wan the best for me but not continuous repeating the same point and not even helping me. i know you want to help me but please stop making me feel so annoyed. After that ask me go to "guat sha", say it only pain for 20 mins after 2hr it wont be painful anymore. well it already past 24hrs, my back still feel painful. Nvm, after that start my DIY decor session till midnight. the whole process, not even a simple greeting of Happy Birthday or birthday song. Well, people comfort me by telling me that "maybe they are busying do cleaning and preparing for CNY". Well actually i was trying hard to hypnosis myself using this reason but what happen in front my eyes is the different thing. My dad was having his HK drama MARATHON for a few hours, my mum indeed was preparing everything. but she still got time sit there and chit chat with her friends, i think it almost more than 1 hrs. why did i say so? i edy finish watch 2 ep of flower boy ramyun shop, and they still chit chatting there. this kind of situation happen in front of me. how can i hypnosis myself with that lame reason. And also for the first time in my life i sing bday song to myself and wish myself Happy Birthday and do my own Birthday wishes without a birthday cake and birthday cake's Candle. I even cried alone for almost 30mins why i have to go thru this kind of birthday. I not far away from my family, the just less than 50m away from me but yet my so insignificance birthday was just been ignore like that. Till juz now, my sis who go work at genting purposely comeback today for reunion dinner and then later going back to genting again to cont work, approach me and then i without hesitate, i complain to her that my parent forget their one and only son already 24yrs old YTD!!! after that my sis feel so frustrated and go complain to my mum and ask for explanation. She just blurt out a lot of reason and mainly that she vr busy till she forget to give me a birthday angpow. =_=. just now she give me the angpow and i refuse accepting it n give a lot of excuse for not accepting it. well she just put it on top of my lap and cont go do her work. Mum i know u vr busy but such insincere birthday present, i wont accepting it willingly. the knife already stab my heart and the scar is there forever. i just can say i wont forget this painful moment till the end of my life.

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